afterall.. ... ...

i've decided to open back my blog.
guess i won't leave it private for too long !

i know it's kinda late that i'm opening it now !
hahahaha, but i will upload with more pics for xmas !! and things that i did these days long
i guess i'm getting better ? as shopping is 1 of the best healing way !
i won't say i'm totally over it... (of coz it take time)

actually i've learn something..
there's always something that can keep me busy so that i won't think so much !
seriously i need to thanks my friends and obviously my family members as well !
mum, dad, jie, bro and even LWL help me to get through the hard time
i will go out with them so that i won't think so much
but of coz there's something i need to sacrifice.... which is money -.-
the more i go out
the more i use on my money
huhuhuhu T.T

nope nope, i'm not blaming anything... because i seriously enjoy doing it!
i see it's end of the year very soon !
i can't help but to think that things move really FAST !
it won't stop because things happened.
i guess ppl really grow up =)

i love my life.
and i love all the things that happened to me
no matter it's sad or happy... i shall all appreciate it.
because of it... i learn to be stronger =D

i shall stop here... friends are blaming me why am i replying soooooo slow !

ps: edward cullen is seriously driving me CRAAZZEEE ><

rainy day

it's been raining continuously nowadays.
i've no idea what's wrong with the weather.
but it's good to sleep yet i can't really have enough sleep.

i'm seriously craving for outing.
wanted to talk to my friend so much.
i feel terrified every time my mother's phone ring.
it scare the hell of me.

i hate this kind of life.
sometimes things doesn't really happened because of 1 side
but when both side, i will just have to give up.

i've no idea i'm having this weird feeling
seeing my friends are having fun out there.
if only things doesn't happened in this way... ... ... ...

this weird feeling is really bothering me so much...
maybe i should learn from my friend get out of here
at least i can have a fresh air for me to breath !

how mean can a person be ?

i was really surprise with the dairy.
as in i didn't really thought it will be sent to me.

there's so many things i wanna shout out and so many things i wanna share with my friends so i don't need to keep everything to myself and tahan everything.
because keeping this makes me crazy
but i know i have no choice cause i'm totally grounded.
the only thing i'm trying to distract myself is that i will hangout around with my mum n sis.

i'm not sure is there a season call break up season
but my friend broke up with her bf as well.
oh well, but i think it's better for them to call it off
because the guy doesn't treat her good, and cannot afford to support her in any way(financial, love n care)
n i believe that she can find a better 1 in future

after all this things happened, i really miss my freedom
i miss watching movie, shopping n hanging out with friends
but i know everything has change.
so i have to face the fact.

*ps: my sister bought a LV bag T.T ><

unpredictable

10.30 morning, sunday.
day that i didn't go out and work with my parents.
i've no idea why the weather is being so moody, i think because they read my mood too ?

things keep on wandering around in my mind.
seriously, things are really unpredictable.
who knows that things changes just because someone unpredictable and super unexpected doing something 'REAL GOOD'
the face, the attitude... ...
there's no one i can tell !

my mum and i were okay.
at least were talking n things.
but she still thinks that i'm angry with her however she dunno the person i'm angry with is not her.

but deep down in my heart i really hate someone.
i dunno how long i'm going to take this
maybe it just take time to heal.

i might changing my blog to some private blog or maybe i'm deleting this blog.

2008 is going to end real soon
hopefully 2009 is gonna be a good year.

great day

today morning, i got to wake up and surprisingly i'm not out to work with my parents today.
so... i've tell jo that sing k session is on ! *neway* sang for 4 hours, but 3 of us are not satisfied yet ! so we're thinking to go for the 2nd time !

next, we head to pyramid because jo said 5pm is killing jam hour !
and she decided to watch movie - TWILIGHT !
trust me, i think it's pretty awesome !
choon guy choon chick everything just seems to be choon !
lolz, mind me, i'm sooooo into this guy right now
omg.

Robert Pattinson
this is the guy that i'm mentioning.
i'm sooo going to buy that book to read too !
cause the storyline is pretty nice!

but of cause if u're so going to watch it, don't put so high hope lar
because diff ppl diff point of view !

*i got something from my sister !* yay =D

life changes real fast.

wonder what's going on with me ?
ever think why i had left my blog lonely and empty ?

over this 2 weeks.
it happened quite alot of things that will change my life.
1st i had finally finished my finals exam although i know the results will turn out sucks.
2nd during this exam time, me and my mum not doing too good over something.
3rd i'm single.

how's life being single ?
feeling really sucks at some time. times that usually being very busy hanging out with my friends. having party. having drinking time. or even shopping time.

i think it will cut less.
maybe i should say alot lesser.
during daytime, i would be able to distract myself and talk and crapz around with my mum.
nite time would feel like shit, because it's when i stop everything and start thinking.
that's why i was trying to find alot of plan to keep myself not to think about it.

however, this kind of situation make something get better.
which is between me and my mother.
i feel really sorry to my mum for me lying to her all the time.
after that day, i feel so relief that i don't need to lie to her.
and because many things did happened, i really love her alot just like she do.

i think i really need some time to recover.
i think what i need is time, time and time !