unpredictable

10.30 morning, sunday.
day that i didn't go out and work with my parents.
i've no idea why the weather is being so moody, i think because they read my mood too ?

things keep on wandering around in my mind.
seriously, things are really unpredictable.
who knows that things changes just because someone unpredictable and super unexpected doing something 'REAL GOOD'
the face, the attitude... ...
there's no one i can tell !

my mum and i were okay.
at least were talking n things.
but she still thinks that i'm angry with her however she dunno the person i'm angry with is not her.

but deep down in my heart i really hate someone.
i dunno how long i'm going to take this
maybe it just take time to heal.

i might changing my blog to some private blog or maybe i'm deleting this blog.

2008 is going to end real soon
hopefully 2009 is gonna be a good year.

great day

today morning, i got to wake up and surprisingly i'm not out to work with my parents today.
so... i've tell jo that sing k session is on ! *neway* sang for 4 hours, but 3 of us are not satisfied yet ! so we're thinking to go for the 2nd time !

next, we head to pyramid because jo said 5pm is killing jam hour !
and she decided to watch movie - TWILIGHT !
trust me, i think it's pretty awesome !
choon guy choon chick everything just seems to be choon !
lolz, mind me, i'm sooooo into this guy right now
omg.

Robert Pattinson
this is the guy that i'm mentioning.
i'm sooo going to buy that book to read too !
cause the storyline is pretty nice!

but of cause if u're so going to watch it, don't put so high hope lar
because diff ppl diff point of view !

*i got something from my sister !* yay =D

life changes real fast.

wonder what's going on with me ?
ever think why i had left my blog lonely and empty ?

over this 2 weeks.
it happened quite alot of things that will change my life.
1st i had finally finished my finals exam although i know the results will turn out sucks.
2nd during this exam time, me and my mum not doing too good over something.
3rd i'm single.

how's life being single ?
feeling really sucks at some time. times that usually being very busy hanging out with my friends. having party. having drinking time. or even shopping time.

i think it will cut less.
maybe i should say alot lesser.
during daytime, i would be able to distract myself and talk and crapz around with my mum.
nite time would feel like shit, because it's when i stop everything and start thinking.
that's why i was trying to find alot of plan to keep myself not to think about it.

however, this kind of situation make something get better.
which is between me and my mother.
i feel really sorry to my mum for me lying to her all the time.
after that day, i feel so relief that i don't need to lie to her.
and because many things did happened, i really love her alot just like she do.

i think i really need some time to recover.
i think what i need is time, time and time !

when things don't go the way u want it to be... ...

what do you do when you're facing this kind of problem ?
i'm not gonna mentioned what had happened
repeating it makes me feel damn depressing.
i know it is not end of the world, but i just feel like getting out of here.

out of sudden, i wish i'm allowed to study in overseas.
i don't need to face this kind of problem.
at least right at the moment i wish to be alone.
just alone.

next year gonna be a tough year for me.
my friends are leaving to aus.
although left 2 of them here with me, but i'm not close to them and i believe they will be busy with their life as well.

3 more papers to finish my exam.
before this, i can't wait till i finished my exam
and for the 1st time, i hope the exam last forever, so that i won't need to face the fact.

i think 1 day, i should really get to some isolated island
so that i can have a clearer mind and guide me what should i do.

fawking stresss

i'm fawking stress up with this damn fawking finals exam !

why did i take finance at 1st !??!?!??!?!
why why why ?
right at this moment i really feel like dropping this fawking course !
it's fawking stress !
i'm facing this shit in 1 week time !
i'm panicking like nobody's business
i'm not using fully with time that i have

it's so hard for me to concentrate
it's so hard to get the DAMN FAWKING things into my mind
can i just stuck the whole boook in my head ?!?!?!!??!?

i'm freaking stress and freaking emo right now too !!!!
what can i do now ?!
fawk the damn study !

long time to finish my exam... ...

final exam is around the corner.
i seriously hate how unisa arrange the timetable.
i know they are just giving us more time to study but having 3 last paper together ain't gonna help much though
and the worst part is that my finals is the last to finish which my sister and my cousin is back !
wat de... -.-

everyone is enjoying already yet i'm suffering here.
my brain not functioning good as not much things is going into it !
i'm soooo not motivated to study right now.
everything just gone so wrong
sigh....

it's almost 4pm... and i shall eat my lunch now... i'm freaking hungry...
T.T

emo...

it's been a long time since i update ?
maybe just 2 weeks i guess
since after i was busying with my damn assignments
but thank goodness i'm free from this sem's assignments
meaning i'm over it =p

end of nightmare, but here comes another horror ones.
which is my finals.
i wonder why is unisa the last who finished everything
and the worse thing is... the exam is during nov but now it's nov they don't even release the examination date yet !
it's making everything worst as i have no mood to study.

recently everything is bringing me down.
1. feeling useless
2. feeling lonely as my friends are leaving to aus next year i'm back to lonely again
3. i met up my friend, and my friend said i grow fatter -.-
4. exams is coming and i don't have to mood to study yet
5. getting complaints from other ppl

why is life being so hard ?
can't it be easier ?
i wish i'm someone smart, easy-going, positive thinking, and slim !
there's not much stress if things are easy