what is friendship ?!

truly speaking, i've been being a lazy bum after my 1 week holiday in my 1st sem. i knew it, and i have been avoiding alot of things.
it makes me realize how much i hate my class and even ppl in my class.
being fake and maybe they are just not that kind of people i can mix with.

i must truly admit that, in this world it is not all people you can mix with. although u wanted to, but somehow, it just can't. just like me. i always act like i'm so into their group, but i knew it, it's not what i think it can be.

there's time i was considering to go for other uni. for eg, VU. but of cause there's a person that made me think twice before deciding to go on this.
just now, i talked to her. and we spill out our problems, it just seems the same. but i think it's because i'm not being in the same class with her, that's why we didn't manage to stick with each other.

i'm not sure issit too late to realize that, but i should be glad at least i found her. i think this is one of my reason i'm being emo and more emo nowadays.
seriously, i think i have damn little friends !!! friends as in those that you can talk to, trust on and even spend time with them.
but how i realize people i know nowadays are being very fake which i seriously can't take it.

for me my friends are playing a main role in my life, i mean who's not. but i seriously love my high schools friends. they are those that i can really find them after didn't contact for months and even years.

so, i should really appreciate all the friends i have now.
=) because it's not so easy to find a true friends .......
i love all my friends.

OMG OMG OMG OMG ..... after lots lots lots of complain. i'm back to my own blog again !!!
why ?!?!?!??! wondering huh ?! just because i need someone to save my SOUL~~~
this is being so urgently. who can help me i will just give them a propz =p

i just have this problem. everytime i step inside my house i feel damn damn damn emo lar. what should i do ?! what should i do with it ?! how can i not be so emo ?! someone told me to think something happy. but what is the happy thing lar ?!

everytime i just feel like going out ! omg omg omg ... am i a freak now ?! damn, i know it's not good but what should i do ?!
i think next week is the last week for my whole semester already. and i don't even have the happy feeling !

know why ?! cause there's no one in my course that makes me thinks that the uni is being so fun and interesting ! i just don't get it why ppl say uni life is so great ! it's totally opposite of it. and trust me. it's not so happy as they said ! =.= why are ppl lying lar... aiyo.

after disappearing for quite some time. it's time for me to cope (sp?) up with my friends. long time didn't hang out with them ady =)
feel free to find me..

wait wait wait !!!! FINALS IS COMING... maybe after finals i will find you guys !
muaks.... much of love =)