merdeka

it's officially 31st of August.
everyone were celebrating out there.
yet i think i have the worst Merdeka ever.
it is true that it has nothing much for us to celebrate
but being lonely in the midnight isn't feeling so good.



this picture express it fully !
i'm having dilemma right now.
3 words -- stress stress and stress ! (maybe 4 words >.<)

sometimes there is just things that we can't do anything even though we hate it alot.
this is what we call life.
no matter how hard i try... it always fail.
i feel bad if i ever do it on my bad
but when i can't do anything, i hate myself being so weak.

right now, right this moment, i'm being lonely here.
thinking this real hard question and i think it will still hunt me till the day i can solve it.

i'm getting tired right now.
due to emoness and stressness.
hopefully i can wake up early tomorrow to do PART of my assignments.

*pray hard*

new blog skin

wonderfulllll...
at last, i've decided what i want for my blog skin.
now, simple and nice !

i've been very weird nowadays.
weird attitudes and weird thinkings.
everything is driving me crazy.

Market Research and Market Analysis is due on the same date !
wonderfully, i'm going out during this 3 days holidays.
don't ask me what am i going to do .... cause i have no idea.
i just dowan to face my assignments >.< (call me a loser)

tomorrow, i'm going to 1u...
i'm thinking whether should i go curve or 1u ?

anyway, i have no idea why, i'm soooo observed with michael phelps since today morning.
keep on thinking ridiculous things.
maybe because he got 8 gold medals (crazy fella)

alright... it's 2.48am yet i'm still happily chatting here =D
hohohohoh.

it's raining again.
it's not really a good day today.

however i feel so relieved after my so LOVELY test.
but more to come after this, which is my beloved assignments are coming to hunt me >.<

something happened just now.
yeap ! few hours ago.
sometimes, ego really kill me.
i have no idea how come i'm so ego, but i guess it just run in my blood (family too)
feel so disappointed and miserable.

everything seems settled but i still feel awkward and insecure.

i think i shall get myself out from this.
more entertainment should stuck in my schedule.

i'm hunting for lots of foodss......
thinking of that i'm sooooooooo hungry
i've no idea what's wrong with my stomach,
getting hungry real easy >.<
i'm like a cow right now -.-

i'm gonna list down things that i need to do, and food that i'm looking forward !

To-do list:-
1. start my lovely assignments
2. more TVB dramas.... (can't wait it to come out soon)
3. more shoppings.
4. sing k (i've been craving for so long)
5. cluuubbbbsss
6. food hunting
7. meeting up my friends....

Food hunting list:-
1. zanmai
2. jogoya
3. some really nice buffet
4. chongqing (some new steamboat place which i think it's Yummy-licious)
5. tao fu fah
6. mcd (i know it's not hard, but it's been a while)
7. korean foooodd

yup...
i think that's all. i think more to come.
will add more in da list.

has been raining nowadays.
good to sleep however everything seems so moooddy.

this time, it doesn't only happened to me, but to my dearest too.
sometimes i wonder issit because me that's why it become like that.

anyhow, no matter what is happening and what's going on
i shall just stand strong.

i'm not sure is there really a break up 'season'
but i think i heard few of my friends had been going through hard time.

that is when i think it's very important for people to think that they are really lucky to have the one they love.
however, it just happen that, whenever people having really peace world in their relationship,
then tend to add in some 'WONDERFUL COLOUR' in it.
which i can tell u it's making everything complicated and WORSE.
this is because they will never understand people who is going through problems yet there are no solution to solve it.

i remembed i have tons of things to write in my blog
but when i open the website, everything just go off.
maybe next time i shall just write a draft 1st....
but this sound weird though.
i shall get back to my drama now =D
(wonderful, tomorrow i still got class at 8am)

i will be facing weeks of tutorial test on every friday 8am sharp !
gosh it's going to be darn stress ! what if we are late to class ?
she say she won't give us extra time -.- evil miss OH !

ICBM is really driving me crazzeee
i know nothing about it... and i'm seriously lazy !
yeah yeah blame it on me.

currently i'm thinking alot.
what if *it's* gonna be far from me ?
what if *it's* gonna leave me ?

just think of it, it makes me more emo !
and having this real huge pimple at my back is making everything worse !

ps: i feel like eating : mcd, chong ching, korean food, kim gary and zanmai *slurp*

it's finished.
everything that we have to do for our beloved grandma is finished.
kinda miss her that moment.
personally i still can't accept the fact that she had left us. =(

nevertheless, it's a tiring day (not to me =p, i slept alot !!!)

bye forever... grandma.

it's another weekend...
past two days, i were busying working for digi event.
everything goes well except i'm getting tanned. (sun burn definitely !!)
thanks to expose under the sun from 8 morning till 8 night (of coz at nite is not included with the sunny thingy)
after all i'm satisfied with the pay.
if it's not because of the pay probably i won't be working too coz i don't like to exposed under the sun.

it's a good experience anyway.
somehow, from this event, while i'm being marshal
i understand why digi is so successful !
they are willing to spend for their workers, and they really motivate them with lots of things.
their teamwork is what i really admire and salute.

btw, thought will be going somewhere tonite, but then i think everything failed
due to not too much ppl is turning up.

guess i'm running out of words...
just wanted to kill some of my time
i'm ddyyyinnngggg to get my money !!!!!

i went to work at shu uemura at pyramid yesterday.
it's fun in a way that i didn't worked in a boutique before.
however, it's not so easy as expected, because the air cond there is freaking cold as if they don't need to pay for it.

supposed that i'm going to meet 'so called friend' after my work which is 8 for dinner.
however, wonderfully he just FFK me around 7.45pm.
i'm sorry if this offended u.
but please don't reply me in such a way that i'm going off work already and i've been waiting for so long... and yet last minute u tell me u're not coming.

i know u have ur own reason, but sometimes please think wise.
maybe i'm just taking everything too serious.

alright, i shall forget about that part.
anyway..... i went yumcha with my parents and this time with sister's bf (nicholas)
half of the yumcha session there's this 2 guys looking real FAIR

at 1st i didn't really pay attention on their face, because the 1st thing that attract me is the fair-ness of these 2 guys which is really RARE.
trust me, nicholas is really fair and these guys are SUPER DUPER FAIR. (which obviously is fairer than me)

i did not realise anything, until nicholas mentioned that they are Twins.
which is true... they drink the same thing, do the same action and even go toilet together
this sound gay, but oh well i thought only girls do it.

i've been kinda obsessed with lengchais nowadays.
however, lengchai will never be good.

ps: tomorrow and friday gonna be a looonnnngggg day.

it's been a while
and yet, right this moment i'm being very emotional.

why ? it's just private, and i don't think i should mention it right here.
why can't they just understand ?

restricting me from something and so on..
i think that's the reason why some of the people are being notty once they went out overseas for studies.

yet, we can't blame them.
cause we all know that they do it because they are being concern.

however, things that they did isn't helping us too much.
there's nth much i wanna mention here.

i'm not suppose to say anything though..
just ... i feel very.... insecure.........

credit to some fella.

so yeah... i went to meet up the lovely debbie today in this pasta shop which named : Pasta de Gohan.
things there aren't cheap.
hm... my friend mentioned that whatever 'spagetti grilled' is better which located in Midvalley
maybe i shall have a try next time huh ?

nothing is special these days.
guess school starts and everyone is getting busy with their life.
however, there are things that still bothering me
which is MOONNNEEYYY.
oh.... i'm searching for some freelance job so i can make my life better =D

hohohoho.
blame it on the sales that are going on everywhere.
i'm soooo addicted to boutique shopping nowadays.
it's not getting any where better when my uni is damn freaking near to all those boutique.
not forget to mention that, due to the increased price in TOPSHOP, MNG n MISS SELFRIDGE
i've stopped myself on going to those shops...

oh... so what did i did today ?
1st breakfast, handling up something for ptptn
shopping (again) meet up someone then dinner out in sunway
then yumcha with my buddies

tomorrow is another long day for me
8o'clock lecture... which this timing is really killing

alright... i shall get going...

ps : happy 080808 !! weeeeeeeeeeee *time pass really fast*